Multitasking Ability

Ih ampun deh, malu rasanya sama diri sendiri. Kalo blog ini rumah tinggal, udah setebel apa ya debunya? Berbulan-bulan kosong tanpa diapa-apain, padahal kerja saya dirumah juga gak ngapa-ngapain. Cuma nonton, liat-liat FB, browsing-browsing.. males pengaruh kehamilan nih kayanya *alesyaaaaan :P

Dan sampailah saya di pagi hari ini, pas iseng-iseng browing-broswing dikompasiana, saya nemu artikel ini Rasanya kayak di tusuk tepat di jantung hati terdalam *halah*. Bener-bener deh.. malu deh rasanya. Saya ini emang tipikal manusia bermental tempe kayaknya. Punya buanyak banget keinginan, mimpi dan pemikiran, tapi cuma sampe mandek di otak. Ga ada satupun yang saya mati-matian usahain biar terwujud. semuanya cuma sampe di niat yang langsung melepes pas mau dilakuin. Payah deh pokoknya. Udah banyak contoh dosanya deh. Contohnya, kemarin menggebu-gebu resign dari kantor terakhir untuk belajar bisnis. Dan hasilnya, saya kikuk gitu mau nawar-nawarin barang dagangan, belajar web buat jualan pun cuma sebatas niat. *cubit pipi diri sendiri*. Terus niat mau ngelancarin b. inggris, biar bisa bikin artikel inggris yang ciamik. Hasilnya, buku toefel yang dah dibeli berbulan-bulan belum di sentuh sama sekali. *jedotin kepala ke tembok*. Dan yang paling keliatan adalah salah satu mimpi saya adalah jadi penulis. Mau punya karir dibidang tulis menulis ini, melihat status yang insya Allah bakal jadi ibu, freelance writer udah jadi pekerjaan yang paling saya idam-idamkan deh. tapiiii, liat aja blog ini kosong melompong berbulan-bulan. cita-citanya sih begitu melahirkan langsung pingin apply jadi freelance reporter atau freelance writer di beberapa media gitu. Nah langkah demi wujudin rencana itu kan saya harus punya portfolio tulisan-tulisan. Nah ini, boro-boro masukin tulisan ke media, blog sendiri aja dianggurin sampe berbulan-bulan. Ampun deh ma diri sendiri. Punya mental tempe amat siih.. *jongkok nangis dipojokan*

Baca artikel di kompasiana itu lumayan bikin saya mikir ulang. Emang mau ya sampeyan daya pikir dan kemampuannya segitu-segitu aja? Mau kalo ada kesempatan depan mata harus gigit jari, karena kemampuan ga mumpuni. Terus gimana nanti mendidik anak supaya bermental baja, kalo ibunya sendiri suka anget-anget puppynya ayam, kayak gini terus. Malu atuh sama temen-temen yang lain, yang udah pada bisa ini bisa itu. Saya cuma bisa senyum-senyum kecut aja. yuk gen yuk tobat yuk. Belajar lagi yuk, Malu atuh sama si dedek dalam perut, kalo bundanya lebih suka tidur-tiduran sambil nonton tipi and ngemil-ngemil aja dibanding memperkaya diri dengan ilmu-ilmu baru. Gak bisa jadi ibu yang jago dong. Ibu saya aja luar biasa multi taskingnya. Kerja sambil ngurus anak dua beres. Mikirin renovasi rumah sampe ke detail-detailnya jago. Kok ini anaknya cemen gini ya.. aduh malu ih malu. Bismillah, semoga bener-bener bisa stop ngejalanin slogan anget-anget puppynya ayam itu lagi. Doakeun saya ya temanns.. :)

JET LAG

Hello blog, how are you dear..? It’s a long time since the last time I post here right? Please welcoming me back.. Because from now, I will write more fluently.. insya allah. :). Now I am a wife.. ahayyy.. New status, new responsibilities, and new phase in life. For more stories about my wedding day, I will post it later. But now, I want to post how my life since the wedding. Basically, I am enjoying it very much. Bahagia rasanya karena sudah menemukan seseorang yang insya allah akan menemani sampai akhir hayat. dan alhamdulilah.. So far, I am lucky to have khoirul fajrin bin budi harsono as my husband. gak perlu dijabarkanlah ya, alasannya kenapa. tapi yang pasti.. I love you dear my hubby.. Both of your strength or your weakness. :)

Before marry, I have already planned to resign from my job after wedding. alasannya beragam, utamanya adalah karena ketidaknyamanan dalam bekerja dan ingin belajar menjadi ibu rumah tangga yang bekerja dari rumah. kedengarannya seru ya? tapi in fact, it doesn't easy like what I thought before. First, "jet lag". Yap, jet lag sodara! Jet lagnya lebih ke perbedaan situasi yang guedee sekali. Dari pekerja kantoran yang kerja dari pagi sampai sore berubah jadi istri yang stay dirumah, mengurus keperluan rumah dan suami, dan manage bisnis kecil-kecilan. So different right? Don’t ask what I feel. I feel deeply sad. Hampir nangis malah. Tekanan batin rasanya. Kedua, rasanya otakku diistirahatkan. Yang dipikirkan utama adalah keperluan rumah tangga, mau masak apa, ini itu udah beres apa belum.. dan berada dilingkungan mamah-mamah dan bunda-bunda.. My childish side of me denial my current status. I feel like I am still college student that hang around with my young and single colleagues. hahaha.. Silly thought right. Yak, nano-nano deh rasanya.. belum lagi kalo misal teman-teman sepermainan ku lagi kumpul atau main dimana gituu.. I feel like.. hmmm.. huhu.. aku tak diajak..! Another childish behavior right? hahaha.. Maybe I am the spoiled girl who being pushed to be a mature woman.

I need to be realizing that this is the phase that I need to pass. And the truth is all off this phase is wonderful. Alhamdulilah, Allah sudah mempertemukan ku dengan jodohku. Diperlancar semua urusan-urusan pernikahan kemarin. Semuanya adalah hal-hal yang amat sangat patut untuk disyukuri. Now, All I want to do is become the best as I can. No matter what title that I have now. I just want to be the best. Be a best wife for my husband, the best daughter for my parents, and later the best mom for my children. I love my family, tapi aku juga masih punya my own world. menikah bukan berarti aku kehilangan kesempatan untuk tetap punya jati diri. Aku punya mimpi dan passion. Insya allah tetap akan kukejar tanpa harus mengorbankan keluargaku sedikit pun. Freelance mungkin bisa jadi pilihan. Ya hidup itu rahasia. Engga ada yang tahu persis gimana ke depannya. Manusia Cuma bisa bermimpi, doa dan yang pasti ikhtiar. Mengenai bagaimana jadinya nanti, Serahkan pada kekuasaan Allah semata. I just wish the best for me and my family. Amin.

Hello 2011

Is it late statement? haha.. No probs lah.. Usually, every New Year eve never give differences for me. yaa, just let the time flies. the new year eve is just about the changing of number. But hopefully not for this 2011. I am so excited to welcoming this year. There is a lot of changes in my life. i will face the new term in life. Okey let me list the changing life of me:

1. Insya Allah, by counting down the days, I will be a wife. yak, menikah. akhirnya rejeki dan jodohnya datang tahun ini. awal tahun ini tepatnya. alhamdulilah. Semoga lancar-lancar terus yaa.. amin.
2. I boost my self to take a new challenge. Be brave to move from this save but uncomfortable zone. yaa, after a years, feeling depressed with my career life, but never dare to move on and take another chance. I boost my courage this year. I dare to move out. Alhamdulilah again.. Especially after my mother gives her bless to do this. yak, dan aku melangkah lagi dengan pasti #berdendang# :D
3. berusia seperempat abad. ngeri ya bok, kalo ukurannya abad. berasa tuaa.. but this is the reality every body! what have you already done in your life? what is your life achievement? for me, I can say it still zero or very few achievement. so, di seperempat abad usiaku ini, adalah menjadi wajib kudu harus berbenah diri. At least, keep learning. do something for others. karena di dunia ini waktu kita sungguh sempit. bismillah, semoga bisa terwujud dan semoga kalimat-kalimat tersebut bukan hanya jadi kumpulan huruf-huruf tanpa makna. belajar..belajar..belajar!!
4. melirik changing life no. 1, semoga tahun ini juga bisa menyandang status as a mother juga. amin.. amin..aminnnn.. :)
   

Oh Life.. the new spirit just come.. so, I proudly say "hello 2011.. Its pleasure to meet you.." :)

Langkah semakin cepat
Kar'na citaku semakin dekap
Hasrat kini terungkap
Dalam kata-kata yang terucap
Waktu terus melaju
seirama alunan lagu
Aku melangkah lagi dengan pasti!

(Aku Melangkah Lagi - Vina Panduwinata)

Passion oh passion

That is my status in my facebook now. I just feel depressed with the activities I do every day. For almost three years, I do a job that doesn’t reflect what I really love. Sad and bad feels for sure!! I guess it must be good if you work based on your passion, you won’t feel those activities as a job, but as an activities that you really love to do and you will be paid for doing that. Oh gosh, I want to cry sometimes. This is just an activity that I need to do to fulfill my financial needs. It doesn’t reflect what I want. This is not making me smarter than before. I need to end this as soon as possible. I need to find what I really love to do. Ya.. ya.. ya.. (Gen, you have already said that statement since hmm..wait.. Hmm yup, since 2 years ago, I guess!) Damn, time flies so fast, and I still the same as I am in 2 years ago, no big progress in life! Hiks!

Just wanted to write

Since my English capability is not well. So I decided to combine this blog into 2 languages. I desperately want to have a very good English capability and my dearest friend told me to practice it by blogging in English. Yes, I love to write, so it is good way to start blogging. At the first time I fully hard tried to write in English, even I ask my friend to review it before it published. But sometimes, lack of good grammar, made me stuck in write and finally cancel to publish. So right now, I decided to write it in 2 languages. The most important thing is I just want to share to others. I am not good in telling something directly, so write it into notes is more acceptable. :)

3 years & 10 Months

Today is August 13Th. Yes another 13 date. It is my anniversary date with my beloved Mamas. It's almost 4 years we have been together. It will be 4 years at October 13Th. Doesn't it too long? Yes, it is I guess. I hope it will have happy ending at the end. Hope Allah will give all the best for both of us. Amin.

Three ‘Girls’ Musketeers in action

Last month I had a holiday with my office colleagues. We went to Bali. Yes, just three of us. If I remind the process before the holiday can be realized, it was so dramatically. We had already booked the ticket since a half year before, and badly we had to pending it and move it to other month because we had the event at the same date. Each of us faced a lot of life problems, which made we lose the excitement about it. Luckily, we found our spirit back at the moment we had to go. And the last, asked leave day to our boss was not an easy way. Three employees took the same date to leave, well, in a lot of company, that couldn’t be accepted. But thanks to Allah, He made our boss gave his sign to our leave approval.

At Bali, each time became our unforgettable moment. Touring with the rent car, reading the map all time long of the journey, moving from hotel to hotel, whistling every time we want to took a bath, it decide who went to took a bath first, and doing whist again to won the turn to sleep alone in large bed while 2 others had to sleep together. Drove the car to the downhill road, especially for women driver, it was totally not easy thing, but we did it. My friend did it I mean. We also learned to drove, and somehow, the car machine is smoked while we learned to drive. Thanks to the owner to fixed the car while we enjoyed the beach. And believe it or not, I just ate once a day and the rest others, we always ‘nyobek’ which means we ate the breads while waiting the eat time. And still more silly activities that we enjoyed that very much.

Each moment taught us to know each others better; we learned how to face each other. When one of us felt in high emotion, the others tried to calm her. We tried to understand each others. We also learned to make a decision to take together. And absolutely, it full of smiles, laughs, and blessed feels to Allah in every time we saw the beauty of His creation in every place we visited.

Our initial name


White sand At Nusa Dua Beach

Nusa Dua Beach


At Uluwatu


At GWK


At Pura Besakih


Beautiful sunset at Kuta Beach

Every time I saw sunset and sunrise, slowly I sang Lembayung Bali lyric by Saras Dewi. Yes I was on Bali and saw the sunset directly in here. The song feels so deep for me. I am going to miss those memories very much. Hope we can always be good friends’ girls, friends of life.

Menatap lembayung di langit Bali
dan kusadari betapa berharga kenanganmu
Di kala jiwaku tak terbatas
bebas berandai memulang waktu

Andai ada satu cara
tuk kembali menatap agung surya-Mu
lembayung Bali

(Lembayung Bali - Saras Dewi)